Healing From Un-Forgiveness
How important is your salvation?
Intense pain, crying, suffering, anger; all
these things Mary Ann has to deal with. Mary
Ann is suffering from un-forgiveness. She
spends her days re-living the torment her
father and her ex-husband put her through.
Looking out the window wondering if the pain
and hurt will ever end, counting every
minute, waiting for her end, she was silent.
With conviction, she
tells me most people tell her to get over it,
or it was her fault, or its just
something you have to live with. After
all, why would Christ, whom she says is her
savior, inflict her with this kind of
I laid my pen down so
I could listen more intensely. She mentally
pulled out the memory and re-lived the whole
experience again as she viewed in her mind
the latest incident. The viewing grew
stronger and stronger as she told her story.
She grabbed her stomach as the pain turned in
her gut, building even more resentment and
hatred inside as she rocked back and forth in
front of me. I slowly reach out to hand her a
tissue, she took it and wiped her face from
the soaking disgust she had shared. She
looked up at me and yelled with such hatred,
it was like venom projected out from every
part of her body.
I hate them, I
hate them all for what they did to me, I will
never, never forgive them!
I waited, in silence.
Then she asked the question I had been
How do I go on
living? How do I get through
I peacefully lowered
my head and prayed for God to give me the
words that she wouldnt fight. I met her
eyes with all the compassion I could draw
from within, and with a quiet voice I